Last week I was very late. This week I’m early cause we’re heading into the city tomorrow. But hey between the Greenwich Meridian and the International Dateline running mosly thru the Pacific it ranges from almost two hours into Monday till over halfway thru Monday.
Can’t pinpoint one ‘must do’. There’s things I want to learn, for sure, some of them practical some of them strictly soul food, some for fun. But none of them are things that will cause me great angst if i haven't before it’s time to leave this body. There may be a twinge of 'oh I was so busy with this I never got to that', but as with the rest of my life no heavy regrets.
I’ve done the big things—am still doing some of them in terms of conscientious citizen of planet earth. From the moment I read about JFK’s ‘domestic Peace Corps’ I wanted to be a part of it. Less than a year out of HS I was in the third training group ever as a VISTA. I worked for the Civil Rights Movement, I reconnected with my long absent father. I had and raised children who grew up to be the kind of people I enjoy knowing even if we don’t agree on everything, maybe in part because we don’t—they give me different perspectives, just as my friends do. i've traveled a little, taken some very small personal stands for what I felt was right, often making a positive difference in someone else’s life. I consider myself fortunate to have had one or two times when I got feedback making that clear.
If money were no obstacle i might travel more—but then, as much I sometimes think about how much good I could do in the world if I had a windfall---being wealthy was not a big component of my definition of ‘success’. And as much as I’d like to see Fujisan, the Gate of the Sun on the Shores of Lake Titicaca and the bioluminescence that happens in the Indian Ocean (maybe I’ll settle for one of the bays on a US Coast where it happens)…the thing I love most about travel---meeting new people getting insight into different cultures I’ve only read about before---I can do that thru the internet.
The one thing I’ve almost never been except occasionally in mandatory staff meetings is bored. I know little bits about lots of things because I’ve supported myself at so many different kinds of jobs. I know more about my avocations—the arts, psychology, neuroscience, religions/myths/folklore, the cosmos because i’m still studying them independently—hope to right up to the end—there’s always new info, what we know ‘for sure’ is rarely static, save perhaps for our core human values. And…I know a good deal about consciousness learned in part from those other interests and in part thru some ‘extraordinary’ experiences that were ‘normal’ to me. I have to laugh…when I was a teen the scientists making pronouncements about actual dreams during sleep had me thinking I was crazy, because my dreams broke all their rules. In the last year I have been vindicated (to my sometimes over analytical self) by two different new pronouncements: 1) Lucid dreamers are less fearful because the fears have been confronted in the lucid dreams. 2) Lucid dreamers are more likely to be much better at ‘metacognition’ than people who don’t lucid dream. That is to say better at analyzing our own thought processes. When I decided to trust the conclusion I draw from my own experiences I didn’t really expect those validations to come in my lifetime…so BONUS!
Took this photo a couple of weeks ago that bush behind me is Sage and it is indeed taller than I am…much of it is…used to live near old growth pine now in the midst of old Sage: