The moon rising over the mountain ridge that marks my eastern horizon on 1/3/15. Natural colors due to light from the sun opposite it, about to set behind the mesas to my west.
My apologies for being mostly MIA the last month or so. El Nino has brought weather to my area that pushes me to the edge of the precipice by being grey for 2 or 3 day stretches, then a respite day of sun. i have Sun Light Affective Disorder, which is now the most common trigger for my depressions instead of life events. Knowing it, and having strategies to resist any kind of depression helps. My peculiarity (well, one of them) is that i never mind out and out storms--rain or snow--it is the oppressive grey overcast, sometimes not trace of sunbeams all day just the low level grey light that gets to me. Storms energize me, sunlight energizes me but days that feel like endless twilight deplete me.
Complicating matters is a shoulder injury from a fall, unfortunately during the last dry stretch weeks ago, when the earth was hard as stone. As messy as it would have been...it would have been less damaging to take a header into the mud we've had a good deal of the last three weeks. i have a high pain threshold in general, especially for 'acute' injuries, but chronic pain wears me down. in part because it inhibits my activities. Of course, i'm also stubborn and refuse to let a little discomfort keep me from what must get done. So it takes longer for me to heal from such things.
These last three weeks have forced me to confront my aging process. i think about it off and on, usually feeling it more in the years i hit the '_5s' (45, 55, 65). But this December has me already considering the milestone i'll reach this coming August--70. For the most part i've embraced it; i'm still here, still have an open mind and heart...so i'm looking forward to it. i'll take each day, week, month, year as it comes and make the most of what it hands me.