Fall into Summer
October is arguably my favorite month. It's always a bummer to head out of summer into less light and winter, but everywhere I've lived, October is a bright spot before the plummet into holiday misery, I mean, cheer.
The last couple weeks I've been feeling a bit #emo and irritable. More so than usual, I mean.
Funny how the body stores stuff and we process it without realizing. Today is (depending on how you count it, but I've decided to use this marker) the 2nd year anniversary of my independence.
There's still stuff overhanging that I need to deal with (think Damocles, only with a mortgage), but it's not directly in front of me, or at least a bit off to the side. And it's moving along. Not necessarily at the pace I should or thought it would, but moving is good. No idea if it will all resolve smoothly. But the optimist in me has my fingers crossed (and the realist/pessimist is just trying to not mock the optimist. oh and also not hold my breath every second of every day).
But there's been a seismic shift in me. Not at all sure what's coming next. Know what I want a little better than I did even just a few months ago, and I appreciate so much the odd quirky balance of frenetic community and sweet solitude I've managed to carve out in the last 24 months. There's still lots of spots that are tender, but I guess I'm back, bushy tailed, bright eyed, and ready for a beating.
Guess that means the optimist wins this round, eh?
(Sidenote: Dunno why @ello has become this odd throwback to my blogger days. But I'm enjoying it. And not entirely upset if it disappears into the ether with my ramblings. Yes, I have a backup. Of course. You know how I roll.)
(Sidenote #2: Speaking of blog...I know I owe ppl artwork. And yeah, it's still coming...)
(Sidenote #3: Ahem. This post is all based on a counting error. I'm off by a month. Oh well... #old)