When you told me you loved me, but didn't want me
I was a burning sun of infinite love for you, and you snuffed the light out
If you didn't want me, then you didn't love me
The idea twisted around my brain
The black hole that was my chest sucked everything up.
Nothing filled the gap you bore into me. The holes. The missing pieces.
You stared into my endless depths
And saw horror.
You saw yourself, in horror,
Is that why you cast a match back into my darkness?
You made a pain equal in yourself as that which you had done to me,
Having paid your price in blood,
You called me back from the edge.
What made me worth saving,
Were you only trying to save yourself?
Today I think,
I am with the man I will marry.
I will love him as a good man deserves to be loved.
Will he come to resent me.