Had Me at Hello
It had been years since I had seen him but the moment my eyes met his all the feelings and all the special moments we had shared came crashing back like a tidal wave against a barren shore. My heart pounded, body trembled and my palms began to sweat. I was giddy as school girl after being approached by the captain of the football team. He smiled. I smiled back and sighed heavily. He walked over to me. We eyed each other with mutual admiration.
“Hello girl.” He said in a voice that could charm Aphrodite. “It’s so good to see you again.”
“It’s so good to see you again too.” I said, trembling with excitement. We hugged, clinging tightly to each other. “I have missed you so much.”
“Me too.” He said as we relished the moment. Being in his arms again, felt so right. I knew it was wrong for me to feel this way, but at that moment it felt so good and for an instant my heart questioned our decision to walk away. I pulled, reluctantly, from his embrace. “What are you doing here at Walmart?” I asked. I had never seen him at Walmart.
“I came in for a case of bottled water.” He said with a smile. That devilish smile that always made me quiver with excitement. “To be honest I keep coming in here in hopes of running into you sometime.” He paused. “I know you have always liked coming to Walmart.”
“Well, I’m happy you did.” My voice stammered, giving away the excitement I felt at seeing him again.
“What are you doing in here today?”
I pulled the camcorder that I had just purchased from my bag. “I came to get me a small
camcorder and some batteries.” I shrugged. “I want to be able to video tape my next Halloween party.”
He nodded. “Have you had lunch yet?”
“No, as a matter of fact I haven’t.” I said, shaking my head. “I was going to stop by sonic on my way out and grab a burger.”
“You want to ride with me to sonic for lunch? We can talk about old times.”
“Sure,” I smiled. I was ecstatic. I couldn’t believe the day I was having. It had to be a dream, there was no way this was really happening, but it couldn’t be a dream. I could never dream up a day like this. Never, in a million years, did I think we would ever be together again even for lunch. I remembered the last day I saw him. It was Mother’s Day. He had come over to my house that evening to wish me a Happy Mother’s Day. We had a wonderful evening together and he ended up spending the night. Even though the night we had was wonderful and I hated for it to end, there was something different about it. I knew it was the last night we would be together. I had made the decision to go back to my husband. “I would love too.”
We left Walmart together in his car and drove over to sonic. We each ordered a burger, fries and a milk shake. We ate and had a very nice chat, talking over old times, recalling certain intimate moments we shared during our nights together. His recollection of those moments made me blush but what’s more it made me realize that I, too, missed those moments together.
Our visit was very pleasant, but I kept thinking it may have been a mistake because it awakened a longing in both of us that should remain dormant. A longing and desire that should, for a number of reasons, never be rekindled. Those old feelings and desires evoked some very erotic memories and caused them to flood my mind, filling my senses with an overwhelming desire to become as one with this man. Once again the desire to feel his touch and taste his kisses was overpowering…..I took a deep breath and tried to shrug it off.
I could not allow this to happen again, not now. There was too much at stake for the both of us. We had too much to lose. There was two others involved and it would hurt them greatly if
they knew we were together stirring up old feelings. They would never be able to understand. I had to fight these urges and wanton desires. I couldn’t allow myself to succumb to them because if I did I would find myself writhing in throes of ecstasy once more with a man I could never say no too.
We managed to get in some idle chit chat, asking about each other’s family. I asked him about his mom, a lady I am still friends with and care about very deeply. A lovely lady with a wonderful heart and soul and even though things didn’t work out with her son, we kept in touch. He asked me about my son and about my cousin Amy. A woman we both had always been relatively close to. He knew her from school and I knew her because of family ties. She was a cousin but we were more like sisters. He even made the comment that she and I thought alike and was more like sisters than cousins. We talked about family, work and my going to school. He was proud that I had decided to further my education and was especially proud because I was working towards my third degree.
It seems rather strange though because not once, while we were talking, did we either of us mention our significant others. It was as if we had pushed them into some dark corner of our minds. Like we were picking up where we had left off.
He looked at his watch. “Lord have mercy.” He looked at me. “Do you realize we have been here talking for over an hour?”
“No, I didn’t.” I said as I began cleaning up our hamburger and French fry paper. “I reckon I better be getting back. They going to wonder what happened.”
“I know what you mean. I’m surprised my phone hadn’t buzzed.” We cleaned up our mess and tossed it in the trash, then he took me back to my truck. We sat for a few moments in silence and just gazed into each other’s eyes. It was as if each of us was waiting for the other to say
goodbye. Neither wanted the moment to end but both of us knew it had to. I finally broke the
silence. “I guess this is goodbye.”
As I started to open the door he pulled me to him and we shared a very passionate kiss. It was a wonderful feeling and for a moment we just eyed each other, neither saying a word. Speaking was not necessary. Each knew what the other was thinking and knew what we were thinking was wrong. He pulled his gaze from mine, gripped the steering wheel and clinched his jaw.
I sat back against the seat, took a deep breath and sighed heavily. I closed my eyes and as I did I felt his hand on my thigh. My heart pounded and my body trembled. I took a deep breath. I knew I had to leave and I had to leave now. I could not allow myself to succumb to what every fiber in my being was screaming for me to do. I opened my eyes, grabbed his hand and lifted it up to my cheek. Once again our eyes met and I could see that he, too, was struggling with the same wanton desires. I kissed his hand.
“We can’t.” I said as I leaned over and kissed his cheek. He pulled me to him once more and we share a heated kiss. I slid across the seat and looked back. “Thanks for the lunch.” I said, as I got out of the truck. “I have really enjoyed seeing you again.”
He looked at me. “Is there anything left for me?”
I smiled. “You had me at hello.” I winked, then closed the door. He smiled, backed out of the park and drove away. I watched as he pulled out onto the highway, then got into my truck and followed suit. I decided to stop off at the gas station on my way home and fill up with gas. After pumping the gas I went in to pay for it and while in there I decided to buy me a scratch off ticket. I looked over the tickets in the display and decided on the one with sixes and sevens. I went ahead and scratched it off before leaving the store. I was shocked. I won. I couldn’t believe that
I won. I cashed in the ticket and walked out $250 dollars richer and a feeling of utter satisfaction. This would go down as a day that I would never forget. I had to pinch myself to make sure it wasn’t a dream. I had never won that much money on a scratch off ticket. I couldn’t understand it, but I weren’t going to question it. I was going to enjoy it and find solace in the belief that I was blessed with the windfall because I didn’t succumb to my carnal desires, instead I chose to walk away from the one man I could never say no to and always had me at hello.