tbh my romantic/sexual orientations are just ???????????? at this point. as soon as i think i've figured something out my entire thought process backfires on me
i'm like "ok i think i'm ace!!" my mind starts second-guessing me like "but do you even know what sexual attraction is to the point where you can say you don't experience it???? what if it's something you have to wait for????" (at least part of that is definitely internalized erasure of asexuality, so screw that)
& then i'm like "ok i think i'm heteroromantic!!" my mind is like "idk man i mean that one girl you only have like one class with is. kinda cute. not trying to burst your bubble but i'm just saying. girls are kinda cute"
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