today i started brainstorming for my college essays bc apps are something that is happening in!!!! less than a year ish!! fuck!!!! and like. my life has been a lot more interesting than i realized???? there is stuff that i care about a LOT that i can talk about in depth?? i still have no idea what chance i have of getting in aNYWHERE but this was vaguely comforting. key word being 'vaguely'