As long as I can remember I never felt guilty over being gay or sexuality in general. I’ve always felt very comfortable in being homosexual and really never had any doubts of who I was from when the time I started to have thoughts about sex. I just felt extremely normal, and being able to watch my classmates and friends from a distance, struggling with their constant problems with the opposite gender I kinda felt even better and more sure of myself. I just didn’t felt shame in looking at other boys in the shower room after physical training in school, or felt guilty over masturbating or having other “sinful” ideas in my mind - and as you know, I was raised in a strict conservative christian environment. Something I didn’t give a fuck about.
Reading about religious people’s view on homosexuality I’ve several times encountered the claim that “choosing to be homosexual” is an egoistic thing, which is of course silly - being gay, bi, trans and so on is not a choice. It just happens, and it’s super fucking mega normal. Just live with that fact, please. But yeah, I actually agree that embracing your homosexuality, bisexuality, transpersona and other things, is about ego - and the conservatives, whatever religion they belong to, are jealous of that. They can’t love themselves because they have sworn to love “God first” or “Jesus first”, setting themselves and their family on second or third place.
What a fucking travesty. First of all, the old worn out saying “You need to love yourself before you can love others” is true. That’s the main thing there. Use that ego, be yourself, do what you want, feel sexy, feel hot, be smart, have fun - and accept who you are and you will be able to take care of those around and give them the respect they deserve. Second, why suffer for your whole life by putting someone else's needs before yours all the time? Why give a tenth of your income to the church? Why stop (or rather pretend to not) masturbate because you’re married? Why must your partner decide together with you what you want to buy? You get the point. Behaving like this is not respectful to your partner, friend or colleague, it’s disrespectful to yourself.
I have some issues with the gay community, but those issues isn’t bigger than what I have with the rest of the world. People are people, I can’t do anything about that. They will behave like idiots whatever I write there or go out and whine about on social medias. They’re unstoppable. But still, the gay community have always been good looking after themselves on an individual level. We earn more money than straights, we often live longer and happier lives - in many cases because many of use refuse to live the heterosexual norm with kids and loans and house and whatever else stops you for living your life or keeping the stress level up. I take the money I earn and I enjoy them, either myself and form my own gratification, or together with my husband - who’s doing the same thing. My husband is not a LaVeyan Satanist, he’s chosen his own path that he feels is right for him, but we meet somewhere in the middle in our ideas of being who we are and controlling our own lives. I would never force him to follow the LaVeyan philosophy, which is part of the positive egoism, individualism I believe be both prefer.
I’m more sure than ever that the LGBTQ etc movement and the rational Satanism belongs together. I’m not saying it’s wrong to want to be gay with a heterosexual, nuclear family norm, but I’m not so sure it’s a good thing for one as an individual LGBTQ’s have been outcasts for a long time; we’ve created our own culture and personality straits, a special language with code words and titles. Many of us, too few actually, have embraced ourselves and chose paths where we don’t produce children or feel imprisoned by the heterosexual relationship moral. Most religions loath all other people than heterosexuals (cough herd mentality cough and therefore many of us won’t worship some abstract entity in heaven or hell and feel constant guilt for being who we are. It’s nothing wrong being an outsider, a rebel, an outcast. If you manage to live like that, with friends and lovers around you that feel the same, why not accept that? The need to fit in is a sign of the weak. And being an individualistic person is no excuse for being an asshole either.
IF the LGBTQ movement had an official religion, the LaVeyan (or rational) Satanism would perfect, with it’s goal that each and every follower must indulge him- or herself in what ever (use common sense here, please = sex between two legal adults or more, at their own free will) sexuality that fits.
We might physically appear as Homo Sapiens, but looking at the intellect, we need to be the Homo Satanis.
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