The Modern Wand and How It Works For Me.
Once upon a time those with knowledge of magick waved their wands around to create fear, love, force things to happen and not happen. Later on the use of magic wands was take over by magicians who only used it to produce doves from their sleeve, at least that what it seemed - when it commonly is used for misdirection; make the audience look one direction while producing that dove with your other hand.
Wands, of course, is based on the same principles as any other magical object, that the user and it’s audience in one way or the other believes in its power. My colleague Caroline, a well known TV-personality, recently bought an expensive pen she felt would give her more power and inspiration while writing down notes on the show I’m producing. That’s her wand, and it’s better just for the sake of experiencing magick instead of one of those cheap free pens with advertising on.
My wand is nowadays my laptop. Well, it’s probably one of several wands I have in different shapes and forms of use, but what makes this laptop special is that I actually can write on it. There’s several reasons for that, but still makes it to some form of magick in my humble opinion.
When I sit down by my stationary computer I feel blocked directly, I can’t write one single word - or if I’m lucky lose inspiration after a few sentences, which means I at least can continue it on this more portable and smaller machine. What makes the laptop my magick wand is how it sounds and how it feels and sometimes also how it sounds. It triggers something in me. The clicking noise when I put my fingers on the keyboard keys makes my mind peaceful (I actually feel the same way when hearing the clicking sounds of ladies shoes on asphalt, and I’m not even have a fetish for such things), and these sounds is impossible to recreate on the stationary.
They also have the perfect sensibility, the keys, which makes the way of my thoughts to the document extra easy. It’s like there’s not middle hand, my thoughts - fingers - document is basically at the same level at the same time. If that’s not magick I don’t know.
The screen is also perfectly shaped for my needs, not too big and not too small and while resting my hańds gently on the keyboard underneath it I feel so much at ease. This laptop have everything my stationary don’t have, and yet they’re not that far from each other. The thing is that my stationary was my wand when I was younger. Hundreds, maybe thousands of pages, have been written on the same keyboard over many years - but maybe me overusing it took a toll both on and the stationary wand. It was like I destroyed it with bad thoughts, with negativity, with pure shit. I let my depression use that wand more than I let myself use it.
It’s still at home. Not sure why actually. Maybe as a reminder to who I once was? Or maybe because it still gave me so much pleasure, so much magick, during those younger years that I just can’t bear dropping it off at the recycling station. It’s a good thing to respect old wands, because they taught you something and they carried you through the wastelands of your youth.
But sometimes you need to let them go, to let them rest, and let new magick take the lead.
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