Experiencing shrooms for the first time was is something as I count as one of the most important events of my life. It just changed me to the core and have helped me thinking differently, out of the box and in the long run, made me love myself a bit more than before. But what is happening under a shroom trip? The scientists have one answer, which I’m sure is very correct and right, but they only look at the chemical level and not the metaphysical one - where stuff is really happening.
There’s a widly spread quote from professor Ron Rensink which goes like this; "Essentially we experience the brain's best guess about what is happening now”. That’s also in the direction I’m looking when it comes to the experiences from eating psilocybin mushrooms. The shrooms opens up to so many frequencies, or dimensions or whatever you want to call it, and every one of them look different. I believe the psilocybin works as a receiver, or maybe a transmitter, to be able to look beyond the reality we are in right now. Realities where the colors are different, the movements are changing, where time isn’t the same. One thing I remember strongly from that first time was how a five minute walk felt like hours, but it was hours packed with experiences, beauty and insights.
Maybe the psilocybin transforms the brain to a tuning machine, a tuning fork maybe - something right out of H.P. Lovecraft. The more psilocybin the harder it gets to cope with the alternating channels, but with the perfect amount you will be able to move around and reason in a strange but still familiar world without any problems. Maybe the tuning part isn’t fully working and the shroom user is constantly shifting through an array of realities, which can explain the many forms of visuals and the experience of time.
I believe the main thing with psilocybin is that it tells you that there’s more to life than what you see, that insight alone makes you a more open and - sometimes - stronger person. I’m not a spiritual person, but the realization that the shroom made me experience visuals and emotions outside the typical normality also made me a calmer human being. I completely lost my fear of dying, and even if I don’t believe in a heaven or hell or any other after death location with the belonging fearful god-entity watching over us, I’m still sure something less spiritual and more scientific will happen to us.
The mushroom itself have also been such a central part of the experience and its aftermath, from cave paintings and modern art, to using expressions seemingly making the mushroom a living creature with some kind of intellect. We use the terms he and she or friend, talking about them like we’re feeling a close communicative connection with them. Is this just a part of the lore, we’re doing it because others are doing the same thing, or is it something we would feel even if we was the first persons eating it and getting affected by it? How did the cavemen experience a shroom trip with closed eyes? Did they see the same visuals as us, the same shapes or pattern or something completely different? How much have modern language, art, design and advertising diluted the psilocybin effect? Do we even see the same colors?
I had a profound insight the last time I was tripping. I stood by the window, looking out at the world on the other side of the glass and knew that it’s time to slowly say goodbye to the shrooms. It feels really great. We’re not parting ways as enemies, but with an even stronger bond between us.
You see, it’s like they’ve taught me everything I’m supposed to learn from them and now the rest is up to me.
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