A Liar's Biography.
You need to create what you want to be, and that also means changing the past. Sometimes with lies, sometime telling the truth from a different viewpoint, at times exaggerating or maybe taking everything back a notch or two.
What’s a lie anyway? If it’s the truth for you it doesn't matter if someone tells you the opposite. We’re not here to please others, we’re here to please ourselves and that also means what we come from and what we’re made of. One important ingredients here is of course responsibility. If you claim to be the best surgeon (or chef, parent, pilot, translator etc) and you can’t live up to those claims, then you need to take full responsibility - other than it’s utterly stupid to live a life with lies that can hurt someone else.
I’ve noticed all my heroes have very ambiguous pasts. From Anton LaVey and his work as a crime photographer and lion tamer to Erich Von Däniken’s exotic adventures and incredible discoveries around the world. Maybe it’s all true, maybe it’s not. But it’s there and somehow it’s becomes the truth for them and some of their followers, when others keeps a distance and don’t see the point with exaggerating the past.
But I saw, why not? Why don’t breath in extra life to those early years, to those years no one ever will find out the truth about. Change details everytime you tell your life’s story, confuse all those people around you have craves the truth. Give them the truth, your truth, in that very moment and make it to be the only truth then and now. Nothing wrong with that, because every time you remember something from your past it will be what it is when you’re retelling it. The objective truth is long since gone, even if it’s about something so small and utterly unimportant to your greatest days.
This is my official biography. What’s the truth in it?
Well, everything and nothing and whatever makes me feel something.
”I had long black hair when I was born, fragments from my family’s connection to the Romani people far back in history. We’re also descendants from Harald Bluetooth, the Danish king who was the first one in Scandinavia to officially convert his country to christianity - which I suspect was him trolling the fuck out of his countrymen. My mother was a welder of submarine and nuclear plant parts and some other top secret constructions. My dad, a musician, played with Eric Clapton and was one of Sweden’s most promising rugby stars.
I refused to eat as a infant and nearly didn’t leave the hospital alive. At an early age, maybe as early as five or six, I realized there was no god and understood I wasn’t like everyone else around me. During my teens I became a illusionist and performed hundreds of times during every form of occasion, from churches and circuses to television and private parties. I never felt guilt for being gay, never felt ashamed. Which also made me leave the christian environment I was raised in. I’ve traveled the jungles of Thailand and Cambodia, I’ve walked the great wall of China and visited the suicide forest at the foot of Fuji in Japan. Mysteries of all kinds it what drives me forward.
When I was younger I also recorded several albums with an experimental music ensemble, I’ve also starred in numerous TV-commercials, TV-series, feature length movies and short films. Nothing gives me as much comfort as horror and cats and the man I’m married to. Nature and writing gives me peace."
Maybe this is Magick och Lesser Magic, in that way I’m creating this and this is the truth for me and you, whatever you think you actually know. Why would you doubt me? But on the other hand, why would you trust me? And whatever you choose to believe, does it really mean something for you? Why not just accept it. Or let it go and focus on how you want to be remembered instead.
Soon you’ll feel the striking power of creating your own path;
past, present and future.
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