I am quitting an addiction, not a fish but the ocean --
Is there such a thing as a struggle to be pretentious instead of mimicking reality that is so fucking absurd!?
I don't want to count the days, maybe the days can count me and I am only one.
Is this numbered? perhaps I should for my own sanity. -- #number1
How did I end up here with a messy mind and chaotic soul?
I am running out of time so I will mute myself, that is what I am so fucking good at.
is this #poetry #poem #prose #whatever gosh I feel #weary the #grief won't leave me be/alone - #numbsandnumbers