I know that eventually, this is going to end up in the trash just as everything else but I must voice out my feelings. Today I was deeply humiliated. Emily’s best friend Sarah called me up when I was at brunch with my family. My mother asked who was it on the phone to which I told her it was Sarah. She demanded that I put it on speaker and I regret doing that. This is what Sarah said and I quote
“You have ruined Emily’s life. According to her, the relationship was over five days ago. You 2think you are some kind of a big shot huh? She has not spoken to her family for 1 day. How dare you hurt her? She told me everything”
I was staring at my mother. I did not know what to reply. Clearly I was the affected party but I could not see Emily in pain. My mother was smiling. She knew where this was going I guess.
“Look Sarah, I understand but I am with my family right now and I really can't talk”
It was surprising that anger takes away all forms of decency. Sarah continued saying that she doesn’t care about my family and doesn’t want to be my friend anymore.
Clearly, I was shocked as was my family. I cut the call, ran to the car and sat inside crying. I really couldn’t do much, could I? I feel like dying and right now it seems like the right thing to do. Sarah was my best friend too but she did not care about my well being. Where is this world getting to? Is a personal problem worthy of third party interference? Should there not be more sensitivity in the world?
Life is like you Mr. Paper, blank at first but filled up by the ink of people who write on it. What is written matters a lot. It can be the constitution of a country or a proposal to wage war. Right now, my paper is filled with hatred towards me. I am losing everything I had. One by one. First started with Emily and ending at my sanity. I can now sympathize with the loss of a loved one.
Dear Mr. Paper, I hope this stays between us and I become stronger to face tomorrow. Thank you for taking my sorrow.
Zac clutched the paper in his right hand and walked to the kitchen. He turned on the gas and watched the paper slowly burn. The sorrow. The pain. All seemed to disappear momentarily but his rage at the society burned along with the paper. Depression surely changes people, doesn’t it?
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