What I learned.
Last night I had this dream in which certain themes (that seem to be recurring in most of them) came back, but the fun thing is that I realized, for the first time, that there was some wisdom involved, too.
I dreamt that I had to be at a meeting involving a workshop in Buddhism, only that I could not remember the time that I had to be there. I just knew I was late, very late. As I was cycling along the streets, constantly watching my iPhone for directions, I also felt that I was going the wrong way. Still, I kept on going, afraid that I was going to miss the meeting that I was already late to.
At a certain point I found its location, under a bridge, in a well lit room. As I entered, everyone turned to see who was this stranger. As I sat down, some people began to laugh and said to me: 'you're wrong here, you're not supposed to be here.' It turned out I was at the wrong meeting, involving people and lessons that I was not supposed to join. So I left again, this time knowing where I had to be. I don't know how I knew, I just did.
And then I arrived. In my dream there was nothing about how I got there, at some point I just was. In a beautiful place with a beautiful garden and music all around and friendly people, too. All they had to do in order for me to proceed was to write down my name on a card. And no matter how they tried, they misspelled my name. I kept thinking: 'My name is 'Temple', which shouldn't be too difficult to spell right around here.'
Then I woke up.
What I learned: the harder you look, to more difficult it is to find what you are looking for, and what you'll find will not be about location, time, people and other specifics. The moment you are ready to let go of that, you'll be where you need to be, without looking, without a timetable or the fear of running late. And then when they keep misspelling your name, it is because it's not about you being there, in ego, in presence, with your name. It's about you having wisdom internalized, in selflessness, in the essence that transcends the material.