Over the weekend, I was listening to the (awesome) Dirtbag Diaries podcast, and an episode entitled "The Hourglass" really hit home for me. It summed up my relationship with the city, the mountains and the outdoors perfectly, in a way that I could never have articulated so eloquently:
People often talk about the work-life balance, but in my life I don’t know which one is work, and which one is living, confused about where I truly belong; I feel alive when I’m in the mountains, yet I never stay. Back home in the city recharges my soul, yet I inevitably grow restless and leave again to find fulfillment in the mountains. Continuously I cross the threshold between these two worlds - worlds in symbiosis, incessantly turning over. Both are part of my identity, yet I can’t exist in one forever, not without the other. Like the sand that falls through the narrow waist of an hourglass, I am constantly pulled from one realm to the other. This is my life in perpetual motion, a delicate dance balancing pleasure and pain, serenity and insanity.
The piece is written and read by Niki Yoblonski, and the whole thing is worth your time to check out, especially since it's pretty short. You can read the transcript on her website or listen to the episode below (via Soundcloud) or at Dirtbag Diaries.