I've had one of the most exciting weekends of my life! Went to a cabin with 3 of my siblings, siblings I didn't know about a year a go. Siblings that have the same dark family history- what we have in common is an evil, crazy father. Our father died last month, so we don't have to be afraid anymore. And now we can get to know each other.
I've been dreaming of belonging to a family my whole life, someone to love me, someone to celebrate Christmas with, someone to cherish my beautiful son.
And now I think I do. This weekend I got so much love and support. My siblings are older then me, and with that a little wiser and further down the road. And they took me into their (my) family with open arms. Messages about love and future are pouring in on my phone and facebook. It's a bonanza!! Aunts, nephews and cousins contacts me every five minutes now. My oldest sister calls med her little princess. No one has ever called me that!! My brother is a big bear type and has giving me the most comforting hugs; hard, long hugs.
I've been dreaming of this my whole life. I'm so afraid they don't like me and will leave me, but they say I'm family so it's impossible that would happen. This christmas I'm going to a (my) family party.
I'm crying and are very afraid now, and my heart and thoughts are chaos. Cause I'm not used to be loved. But I'll get there. This is my future, and I'm so blessed!