Noise. Overwhelming anxiety. Violence. Gender. Destruction of the body. Multiplicity. Liminal identities. These are the concerns of a queer punk kid from Philadelphia. Growing up, things begin to fall apart. Childhood understandings are obliterated. Nothing is simple. Nothing is purely symbolic. Every gesture is complex and meaningful and potentially dangerous. We are constantly surrounded by subtle violence, acts of aggression, displays of dominance, roundabout ways to oppress one another. I have been told to be proud of my identity, but I am unsure of what that identity is. I am unproud that facets of my identity have been used to oppress. I am confused as to my place, as to what to do. I am anxious.
My work is an amalgamation of these confusions and anxieties. It is an honest and aggressive display towards a world which is hostile and unclear to me. Gathering scattered thoughts and understandings, I attempt to make something that makes sense to me and others that feel they occupy liminal spaces.
Joshua Spelman-Hall is primarily a DIY noise, video, and performance artist from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. They currently study in Chicago, Illinois and perform under the name “boyside.”