"If there is one thing I enjoy about Pot, it's that I can self-reflect. It's not that I can't do this on my own time, I just don't. I'm concerned about the wrong things: Money, keeping up with the Jones's, I can't date/approach/talk to this girl because I'm (Latino, Average, I'm fat, I didn't graduate College therefore _______ ), did I mention money? ...the list is a lot longer; My mind never shuts the fuck up. During this self-reflection I thought a lot about where I wanted to be in life and if I was making the right choices. I let the negativity consume me because it was what I needed to see the good. At the eye of the storm I had moment of peace, knowing that I wasn't out yet, but that change within myself was possible.
I've eased up on the drinking recently. I think it might have been the best decision I've ever made for myself. This is the first time in about 4 years this has happened. I've probably drank every single day for the past 3 of those 4. I feel like I'm starting to pick back up the pieces of my life, which is a really good feeling."
/Stream Of Consciousness