Love Object – a series of twelve watercolors depicting various furniture – is about the oppressive nature of my mother’s domestic use of pattern and decoration and how I explored my own sexuality within the omnipresence of her aesthetic. Her flowery, overtly feminine furniture and decorative preferences served to repress my masculinity while simultaneously sublimate her own sexuality. In fear of the outside world, I was confined to a home my mother had constructed. My adolescent sexuality – having no outlet for its insatiable hunger – was directed to the furniture for sexual pleasure. The furniture then became anthropomorphized, existing as both my mother’s furniture and as my lovers. Through physically having sex with my mother’s objects I was suturing myself within her ideology, her aesthetics, and her repression. My attempt at self-exploration then twisted into self-repression and absorption of her maternal dogma. Love Object attempts to inspect and lay bare the cyclical nature of trauma and repression within normative family dynamics.
- Part of the juried undergraduate exhibition, In Search of the Present, at the University Art Gallery at UCI - 2015