Ok, so I have this feeling where I need to be where everyone else is, which is a huge problem because people are everywhere. People are in California having an awesome time and at Glacier National Park seeing sights and breathing fresh air and walking around NYC coming up with ideas and being creative. I want to be everywhere at once at all times.
Obviously this is unrealistic but I can't shake the feeling and it's something that's been eating at me. Even when I'm doing something fun or creative or anything, I get a fear of missing out for every other person in the world. It's strange.
Maybe I am not doing enough fun things or maybe I am not doing what would fulfill me. Both of those may be true but I do enjoy life and where I have chosen to set up my home base. I can go into NYC any time I want and I can also go to the beach or hiking or stay in Montclair or take a flight to Iceland. I have all the freedom in the world and I feel like my main problem is I need to exercise it.
Some of the time I feel like I am not sure what to do. Where to go or what to eat or what to see or what activity to spend my time doing. I'm discovering that I'm much better with a guide or a partner that helps lead the way as far as figuring out something fun to do. Sometimes I feel like there is too much to do. What a great problem.
I think that this stems from me wanting to do things with other people rather than by myself. Having a partner or a group of people to do things with is much more enjoyable for me than doing things by myself. I have been hanging out with me for 24 years now. Being with other people and learning about them and making jokes and sharing things is more important to me than being alone.