You speak of the real world?
You speak of the many fake people there are and yet you aren't real yourself.
You still hide yourself from everyone, constantly building walls and a persona for every person you meet.
you still fear being hurt.
You speak of the real world because you've experienced pain. But how real are you yourself when you still cant solve your own pain. How real are you when you cant trust your true self with everyone you meet. Instead you put a fake mask to protect yourself.
You develop personas and personalities with the excuse of "I'm not myself when...". It shows you're not comfortable with yourself, It tells me you are not true, yet you speak of fake ass people and the real world.
You don't even know where to start with yourself.