i mean the big thing is i don't feel safe, no matter where i go, what i do. i always have to think about what i'm saying and watch what i do, i can't just let myself do whatever it has to be carefully monitored and analyzed before it even happens. i can't trust people and when i do decide to, it's the wrong decision. not to mention, i'm so fucking sensitive, that i have to be careful when interacting with people because of how easily i'm hurt? i'm so WEAK and HELPLESS how can anyone actually want to fucking deal with me???