i could wait i really could but i also could just try again tonight lmao i don't want to deal with the heartache of tomorrow and i have no one to talk to and i feel like i'm slipping away again, and i know no one cares and i'm yelling into a void that's never cared about me but something needs to know and if that's the expanse nothingness of cyberspace god let it be
my mom wants me to start taking more medicine i said it's not going help and thursday it's going to be prescribed and i can't fucking handle it anymore no one fucking gives a shit it seems
"oh what about the people who love you?" you mean all like two of them? i can't care anymore, i just want to do what's best for me, and this feels like it's it. nothing's been able to convince me otherwise and what did convince me turned out to be lies. i have to go.
everyone's asleep in my house. we'll see what happens i guess.