okay so i just reminded myself of something that really upsets me
i tell you that you are very special to me and i would do anything for you and what do you say???
"but you'd do anything for anyone, i'm not special, you love other people too"
what the fuck? that's? hurtful? yeah i'd do a lot for a lot of people because i DO love a lot of people! i love a lot of people!!! SINCE WHEN IS LOVE BAD?
i would stay up all night with you, i would call you for hours at a time, i'd be patient and help you through episodes, i'd help you take care of yourself, i'd help you manage your time, i have done ALL THIS FOR YOU and what the fuck do you say
you're not special to me
yeah i'd do all this for quite a few people but you can't appreciate that i do this for you? you can't just be like "oh well i am one of the people he loves!" and be done with it? no you need "okay but you love me differently? you love me MORE? MOST?" NO I DON'T i love you and i spent a fucking year of my life on you and practically you alone and i have never benefited from the help i gave you, you never reciprocated, yet you have the nerve to tell me that