It took me 30+ years to get back to being me, to this.
I'm 8 here, I think, or around this age. Long hair, a dress...I look like a cute little girl. I was abused since age 5 or so (memories are fuzzy), in all manner of ways. Sexual abuse was what hurt me most. I grew to hate it that I was cute. I grew to hate long hair, dresses, and anything that would make me look desirable. I'm 39 today, and after being suicidal, working through 2 years of intensive therapy, quitting my career, and becoming a writer about 3 years ago, I'm back to having long hair, wearing dresses, and being a little girl. Perhaps there will be a time when I feel my age, but I feel like I'm 6. Or in that region.
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR BIRTHDAY WISHES. I LOVE YOU.