There are days when I'm sure of myself and of my writing and there are days when I doubt. The doubting days prevail. There are less of them lately but still they crop up. And when the doubt is unbearable I share it with the universe and then the universe smacks me across the face to stop doubting already.
Just got this letter from a reader after I shared my doubts online and I thought after yesterday I didn't have it in me to cry anymore but here I am, crying again...
When I first discovered you on Twitter I was amazed by your experiences. Even more so, I was impressed with your strength and perseverance. The more I learned about you the more I wanted to read your work. The more I read your work the more I enjoyed your imagination expression, and talent. I appreciate the unique voice and vernacular of your characters. I recently started listening to audio books, I would love to hear you narrate your books. I can imagine you bringing your characters to life thru your voice. Oh, btw, I bet you could write an amazing biography.
I understand your anxiety about your writing. I think it’s natural to doubt one’s own level of talent. At some point though one needs to accept and embrace the gifts that we have. You’ve already done what you needed to do to get where you are now. Despite all your fears and doubts, you persevered and became not just a writer but a great writer. There is no room for self doubt anymore. You have already proven that you have the talent and skill needed to create magic. Once you send your work out into the universe it’s out of your hands. If up to your fans now. Your fans love your work. I love your work. I can’t wait for your next book. Even though I have read the final drafts of your work I have still purchased the Kindle versions. That’s my small way to show my support and because I want to be able to revisit your genius again and again. I’m sure there are many more fans out there who feel the same.
Lots of people who have had difficult lives choose to be bitter and angry. You have chosen to use your experiences to create such layered stories that illicit a myriad of emotions. That is an incredible feat. I am so proud of you for that. I love your spirit and attitude. I am inspired by your strength to live your truth without apology.
Continue doing what you are doing. Believe in yourself no matter what. Don’t allow anyone to make you doubt your natural gifts. Those who love you always will. I always will! Accept that not everything your write will strike a cord with the masses. If you can touch only one heart than you have accomplished something magical. Everything else is bonus. And remember...
It is not your responsibility to critique your work. Your job is to act. Leave the critiquing to the director.