Who am I?
Polish writer, Marek Hłasko, one day in my simple translation said: You don’t have to choose life (but Renton still was right). But if you do – do it beautiful.
So I’m still trying.
I’m too emotional. I should be more understanding, easygoing, maybe empathic.
I talk to myself by writing to myself. I sort my things mostly this way.
Cognitive dissonance. I blame it every time I have to choose between dying tradition and new rational ideas.
I MISS MY TWIN SISTER I NEVER HAD. EVERY DAY.
I love imperfection. I do a lot of things an odd number of times. I love the smell and act of touching paper. I love the sound of my cello with a saxophone which you will bring one day to me. I love songs in 5/4 time signatures.
For no reason.
I’m an early bird who love to work, think and write when no one else’s around. Just me, my notes and the darkness. Darkness in every window of my neighbourhood-that-always-sleep. Yeah, that’s the next thing. I have a problem with people who complain about everything – starting with their lives, jobs, ending with everything… what others do.
I love long walks. I do it every day to fresh up my mind. To face my feelings, to spring up my ideas, to let them grow. To follow the path of nature, to admire and contemplate Her miracles, no matter how pathetic and turgidly it sounds.
I’M A TRAVELLER.
I like to risk. I take every chance, because I realised that some things – for real! – only happen once. I trust my feelings and never do anything against them, what makes me ridiculously selfish.
I crave the feeling of this one amazing day, when I will fall in love with a man who enjoys my madness, not an idiot who will try to force me to be normal – what does it even mean?
I will fall in love with the madness and something real in his eyes. With the balance of doing what passionates him the most and makes him love this world every day a little bit more. Holding my hand at the same time.
Yes, I’m crazy about looking for a balance in everything. This is the only think what keeps us rational and kind of sane. I’m crazy about the music, movies and all these quotes what perfectly combine with our current mood. I enjoy painting, singing, playing and all the stuff my government wouldn’t pay me for. I’m crazy about asking, mental challenges and my insatiable curiosity.
I cry when I watch Titanic and listen to the Earth Song by Michael Jackson.
Every single time.
I’m a woman. And I am real.