my boyfriend left finland today. ill see him next time in october when im visiting him in the US. i dont feel sad. i just miss him So Much. i havent slept alone in like 3 months. i cried the whole bus ride from the airport with my sunglasses on. the bus was full of people who came back from their holiday/people who came to finland for holiday and then there was me. i listened to when youre gone by avril lavigne and cried so much lmao. i havent cried this much since michael jackson died. it was lit. but anyway 4 months go fast and i know we can make it. missing him this much just proves how much i care about him and reminds me of how much i love him.