You live in mind
When I sleep alone, I dream of holding you
Your sweet like brown sugar smile
And I don’t push you out, you are a welcome visitor
More than I hate it I love the feeling of wanting you, knowing you want me
Maybe because while you’re so beautiful, your heart and your body
I feel your probable transience like a dull stomach ache
Like a stomach ache I’ve resigned myself to, a pain I’ve found peace with
I just want to learn to love from you, and then I want to love you just to love you
I want to kiss you with my soft gentle heart and my sweet warm lips
I want you to feel happier because I exist, because we exist together
And I think this when I watch you pull on your clothing in the glow of the moon and my fairy lights
Waiting for a goodbye kiss, knowing it will come unattached to compliments, to future plans
And deciding I will love your kiss for its pureness, its sweet brevity
Forbid the dilution of its goodness by what it lacks
