I thought it wasn't much of a big deal.
The woman I looked up to year by year unconditionally.
I watched her grow successful
and I gained more and more respect for her.
I don't remember how many conversations I had with my friends about her.
Or the times we would jump on the couch for the next episode
I do remember the excitement
of getting ready to see her for the second time
with my best friend
both of us crying, watching it
she seems different now.
I tried to give her a second chance when I found out,
I knew she would never support that.
Hearing her songs are bittersweet now.
It shouldn't make me so sad,
but she was one person I always respected.
Now I know I can't.