I've got to be honest -- it's been a total blast recording & sequencing with GarageBand X (and Virtual DJ, and Audacity, and, and, and...). I'm looking forward to the upgrade to Logic Pro X. At the same time though, I have no idea how to market myself whatsoever. I tend to flood my social media accounts with links that don't get many clicks, which in turn makes me self-conscious about my progress as a musician and producer.
It's not like it's not available out there. I just tend to get lost in the sea of sharks. The horror stories I hear about promoters these days makes me wonder if I shouldn't just go take up astronomy sometimes.
That said, I haven't come close to giving up, this isn't one of those posts. I've just got a lot of butterflies. I'm not confident in myself, which is a problem I've had since FOREVER. Well before I dedicated myself to making music for a living (and I mean actually doing things, not just plugging a guitar into an amp, mindlessly shredding away and calling myself a musician -- this is a fairly recent change, heh). As such, I have basically no practice in actually performing any of this stuff live, either on the Numark or through various instruments used in different songs.
This, of course, seems like an absurd thing to be worried about when I see videos of multi-millionaire DJs not actually doing anything with their DJ equipment other than pressing play and making it look like they interface with any of the other controls in front of them.
I also wonder if I'll ever write any lyrics again.
There's this great book called The War of Art that I was going bonkers about when I first got it. I still love it. That Resistance it talks about is a real fucking pain in the ass.
It's a breeze when I'm just making the damn music, but sometimes it's fucking impossible to reach for that keyboard, that guitar, that DJ controller.