Hey all. I've noticed i've gotten a few new followers lately. I'd like to start posting regularly, and I'd like to start by telling you a bit about who Lylith Hayes is...
Well, technically, Lylith Hayes is a pen name. But in a way it feels more real to me than my birth name (sorry Mom). I'm an author, and Lylith is that alter ego, the part of me that crafts words, stories, musings, and poetry. I write because I have no choice but to write. It keeps me sane, grounded, and focused. Without words, I would be a complete mess.
Writing is to me what breathing is to you. You can control how you breathe, but you cannot control IF you breathe. You can hold your breath until you pass out (theoretically at least), but the moment you're unconscious, your body takes over and you breathe again. You don't really have a choice. Likewise, I have no choice in crafting words. The stories will come out no matter what I do; the best I can hope for is to choose how and when those words pour out of me.
I'm also a mom of three beautiful daughters: Munchkie - 11, Pixie - 9, and SweetTea, also 9. On top of that, I'm step-mom to three more amazing kids. Racer - 11, Reader - 10, and Rosie - 7. I'm partnered with an amazing couple (the parents of my step kids. My boyfriend and girlfriend are both strong, supportive, sweet, loving, and all in all incredible. They support me in ways I didn't even realize I needed support.
Which leads me into the next piece of the puzzle... I'm poly. I'm part of a closed triad, raising six kids between the three of us. (I'm also bi... makes it easier to have both a boyfriend and a girlfriend, eh?)
Some of my past has shaped who I am in many ways. I've endured emotional and verbal abuse at the hands (or rather at the words) of an ex-husband who committed suicide just over a year ago. I've watched my girls walk out of fear and into peace, embraced by love and compassion.
I colour code my M&M's before I eat them. And then I eat them in a specific order. I always have music playing, and can listen to the same five songs on repeat for hours... or weeks at a time. I'm a tad obsessive. I like to be right, and sometimes admitting I'm not is a struggle. I eat more junk food than is good for me, and oh yeah... I'm not just bi-sexual. I'm bi-polar (type 2) as well.
What does type 2 bi-polar look like? A lot like what you'd expect when you hear bi-polar, except my highs aren't nearly as extreme... nor as frequent. The bouts of depression, or the lows, are longer and far more frequent. It also means a new medication to help balance me out. (Always fun when they tell you here in Canada it's called a mood stabilizer, but in the states they call it an atypical anti-psychotic.) On the upside, the meds really do help. They make a huge difference in my overall mood and outlook on life. Downside? they put me to sleep. Seriously, within an hour of taking my meds I'm ready to pass out. Upside to that? I take them at night ;)
Overall, life is good. I'm happy. Content. Creative. And able to focus in ways I haven't in years. Well, most of the time. Except when the ADHD I struggle with decides to run rampage through my mind. Still learning how to manage that one. And that can take some time. But in the meantime, I'm content with my life.
So this is me. A little crazy, a lot quirky, with a lot of love and laughter to share. If you read along with me you'll find some struggles, some trauma, some wounds, but also a whole lot of triumphs as I make my way through life. I'll share my insights, and my creativity. I'll share my poetry and my passion. And maybe even help you discover your passion. Because a life without passion is a life without purpose.