Are we all lost stars?
I love this quote from the big philosopher Albus Dumbledore :
"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light".
Ok, I know, easier said than done! I'm not Hermione. Too bad...
In my darkest times, the only thing I wanted to know was: Where is the fucking switch?
What could make me happier? A different job, a different place, a different boyfriend? Children? Nooo. I didn't know what to do with my life.
I went to see therapists: the Freudian psychiatrist, the Chinese guy, the Indian doctor, the medicine man...
But still more questions.
Then I decided to take a coach training. I wanted to help others, save the world, contribute in some ways. After 2 or 3 months, I was desperate. How could I save the world if I was always fighting the darkness?
And you know what? Despite all this (the books, the training, the therapists), I still don't know. I don't know if I can save the world. I don't know how to be happy all the time.
But I do know myself better. I know now that it's ok to be human.
I'm not better or worse than everyone else. I'm just a lost star, trying to light up the dark...