Now Playing: "Not My Time" by Three Doors Down
Really, I'm a terrible blogger. Constantly finding things to write about that people will actually bother to read is hard. Anyways. Here's how things are going in my little world::::
I'm not happy with certain aspects of my life. No matter how many times I say it or do things to make myself happy- I'm just not. Something needs to change. I need to do something "big" this summer- put some power back into my life and relationships. Maybe instead of working I'll get into my car and see where I end up.. Honestly, I think I need to take a "fiver" from school. I need a break. I think in the fall I'll take one semester off and just work and see where I end up- save some money, experience things, maybe travel to somewhere exotic (but not Thailand, everyone goes there).
I've been reflecting a lot lately on the past and I find myself getting caught up in past mistakes. I need to learn to let go. I used to think that I was sentimental, but now I just think I have an issue with letting go of the past. Just one more thing to work on I guess.
I caught myself in a conversation with a friend recently on how he believes he will one day be "complete". I don't agree with this sentiment at all. The way I look at myself and life is from a perspective where I am constantly changing and learning and growing for the better; I'll never be complete. There will always be a shift that'll need to happen- that's just the way that life is.
Not much else to share on my end here, so I guess I'll just leave you with that. A jumbled mess of feeling. Now you know what it's like to be in my brain-- not too pretty, is it?
Be good. Stay on top of your menial tasks like laundry and stuff- when they're done you feel much better.
xoxo - gossip girl