I have my sugar daddy date, tomorrow. I really do want to give a good impression. The least that I can do is paint my nails and toes, tonight. I'm dying for chocolate and sugar, honestly. It's only been a couple of days since I've finished off the 1/2 gallon of ice cream and M&Ms that I got and practically inhaled. The chips and pretzels and cheese sauce is gone, too. I've really been kind of binging on junk food. I've been slacking on working out, too.
I'm still waiting on my job info to come through. It's supposed to be on its way, soon. I really want to use the extra money to cover my debts and save up for training. I really want to get back into training. I just want something to motivate me and give me an objective to work towards.
I found a porn featuring a guy who looks almost identical to Zack. It's kind of nice, to get my mind off wanting to contact him or pining for him, as a sexual release. He hasn't spoken to me in over a month. I'm not talking myself out of being with him as much as I'm trying to manage my expectations.