Is anyone else a relentless people pleaser?
I avoid people for as long as possible until I finally agree to see them and then dread seeing them. When I'm actually with them I just let them speak about themselves and I say what I'm supposed to, because I know what will make them happy. I take on their problems as if they are my own and worry very deeply about how I can fix everything. I also entertain them with exaggerated stories of my life. If I do try to share honestly I stutter and sweat. Eventually I get exhausted because I'm on such high alert but I don't leave. I'll stay as long as it pleases them and I'll go home empty. This creates resentment which makes me avoid them again. And also creates apathy towards my own goals.