You were twelve years old, sneaking out from your father
and I stupidly followed to watch you pepper trees
with the pellet gun. Your school tie wrapped around your head,
quoting Rambo with smears of paint upon your cheeks.
I only shot once, piercing the surface of the stream,
but you kept talking about game and meat
and you cracked the air, brought some red-breasted bird
down to the ground, where it fluttered and quickly died.
Something stirred that day, and the world
seemed blanched, cold, and I couldn’t hear
the trickling creek, nor could I find the words
and say we shouldn’t have killed the little thing.
I inwardly apologise whenever I pass that same spot.
Nothing has changed, but I can’t transcribe the white noise
of whispering winds bending the willow branches for you,
nor how the shimmering sun spreads through the sycamore.
@ellowrites @ellopoetry @apoem_4u
The first issue of @notforprint arrived a while ago and I've been far too slow to say it's absolutely brilliant! Really enjoyed the read, it hasn't left the desk since!