Take a step back, then two forward. Don't hold it against me if I don't stay the night, it's not my intentions to deceive you, it seems to me that I can only move so fast, and I simply cannot keep up with you. Leave me behind, that is ok. I've been here before, I am no longer afraid. The problem seems to lay behind me, deep in my mind I see you, and I cannot get the grip I need to keep you near. It seems the best way to cope is to play games, though I have grown tired of these games. Sleep doesn't come easy, up day and night, I think of every reason as to why I am this way. Running behind, I pick up the pace only to fall further behind, it is to me that I cannot just figure this out. Wondering when this will all be over, I mill about in the shadows. Creatures as we are, we fear the things that we cannot understand, and maybe this is why I am the way that I am. I don't know how this works so I run in circles, waiting for you to see me.. maybe not you, but maybe someone who will understand my fear of love, maybe she will take me by the hand and tell me that it will all be okay. One day it will all be clear to me, just not right now. The hardest part is to understand how to love, for I have never been loved in such a way. Now that you know, I do not fear it any longer, but don't hold it against me for being unknowing and lost.