Day 354 - Make a List
Three ways another's addictions hurt me:
It wasn't until I was already damaged that I realized just how damaging it can be to live with an actively using addict. It's more than the lying, tantrums and physical damage to the house. It's the depression and the feelings of hopelessness.
I have few weapons in the fight against this. They are good weapons, though, and they work very well.
An inventory is the best one. Am I taking care of myself? Am I doing something to stay healthy? Am I maintaining my contact with that which makes me happy? Do I still remember HOW to be happy?
Checking in with someone who has my back is also good. Not someone who always takes my side, but someone who I can count on to see the bigger picture and to call me on my actions. The kind of person you always trust, even when you don't like to hear what they have to say.
In my case, spirituality is more defined by me helping others than asking for help. It's a good check. If I'm too tired to help someone else, it's an indication that I need to help myself. Your mileage may vary, it almost always does where spirituality is concerned. An even better check is to look at how political my spirituality has become. If I'm immersed in that, I'm in dire need of getting back to the basics.
I'll make a list.
I'll check it thrice.
I won't care if I've
been naughty or nice.
I'll take a look.
I'll look again,
and when I need help,
I'll help a friend.