Day 275 - Step Outside
Three steps to dealing with chaos:
Step outside of it
Realize it is temporary
When I had chaos at home and chaos at work, I could find sanctuary in neither. I made the mistake of looking elsewhere for sanity and peace. It was familiar, looking to something other than myself. I had looked for joy outside of myself, pinning my emotions to anothers'. I looked for sanity there, too. It wasn't totally wrong, but as an end of itself, it just didn't work.
Finding peace outside the home gave me some quiet, a place to cool down, to become calm. When I finally looked inside myself for that peace I sought, I finally found it. I hadn't seen it before as it was hidden away in all the noise and confusion, but it was still there. So I took steps to nurture that peace within myself until it grew so strong that I could find it even while my house was full of drama. At work, it helped also. In between, it strengthened. And my peace spread. As I failed to add my drama to others', their drama lessened.
We still have drama at home, but now I know that I can always step outside of it for a bit and look within myself. I have many tools at my disposal to do this; a quiet walk, a good book, listening to a guided meditation, immersing myself in nature, yoga... I have as many ways to find peace now as we do to find drama. I have become a peacemonger in the busy street, and island in the storm, and finally, just myself.
Peace is where you find it,
In writing on the sky,
In flames curling upwards,
In a newborns' open eye.