Day 283 - Step Up
Three characteristics of surrender:
I let someone else's will override my own
I release my responsibility for future outcomes
I assume guilt for past actions.
While there's always truth to be found within the twelve steps that we follow, it is often camouflaged by religious politics. In the case of the first step, the truths are that when we try to do too much, or we do too little, that we screw things up. The truths are that we take on too much responsibility for things we cannot control, and then add a generous helping of guilt for the inevitable outcomes.
But these truths are often obscured by the religious politics of the Christian majority, who interpret the truths in light of the politics of domination and submission that so characterize that religion.
The fact remains, that clear thinkers within any religion will find the value in the twelve steps, regardless of the embedded political views of the majority.
It's a good first test. Am I willing to realize my true role and that I cannot control everything around me? Can I do so without letting others' control me? Can I retain a reasonable level of responsibility for my actions and not free myself of all obligations? Can I avoid feeling guilt for not being perfect?
The wisdom inherent in the first of twelve steps goes far beyond just realizing that I cannot control everything. It comes to light in the application of the step, and how I treat others, and how I do not bow my head to the politics of domination and submission.
Surrender is not a pagan virtue; clear thinking, is.