You know what sucks? Working hard at life, working on yourself, building for the future and striving to grow while idiotic madmen get into pissing contests that threaten the very existence of life on Earth. It is mind-blowing that these self-absorbed tools hold the power to launch weapons of utter destruction across our beautiful planet to devastate and contaminate literally everything. I just went back to college this fall and I am struggling to give a crap about assignments, quizzes and homework, I am failing to keep track of online quizzes and when they close. I am pretty sure I just got zeroes on a pile of required practice quizzes for Natural History. ZEROES. So that means I just tanked my fricken GPA. This is partly because I just have a lot on my plate right now but it's mainly because of the sickening feeling of imbalance in the whole horrible political situation. Nuclear war? Is this a goddamn joke? I spent my childhood worried about a nuclear war but then, gods, what happened? Russia collapsed and became a non-factor and, I am telling you, this was the best thing that could have happened to my stress level.
So now there is all this insanity with North Korea. Obviously the man who runs it is a complete whack job but he's been balanced out before by, however much I might disagree with some of them, American Presidents who were sane, thoughtful and careful about not shooting their mouths off like cranky toddlers trying to prove something on the playground. That is no longer the case. This is the world we live in: Nuclear war is back on the table. How the hell are we supposed to just carry on living our lives in this stupid way we do? We're supposed to work hard, and save for retirement, that theoretical day when we finally get to travel and/or relax. We've put off things we wanted to do for years because we've been raising kids, getting an education or trying to build a future and now impulsive, narcissists hold the fate of the world in their stubby little fingers.
Is there a tomorrow? I want one, very much, but is there one?
I live in the States. I don't want to anymore. It's ugly here, so ugly, and it's getting worse. Did you know, you can't just leave? Well, if you're normal people you can't. I mean, we could but we'd run out of money pretty quick and then what would happen? At least one of us needs to secure a job in another country and that is not an easy thing to do for most people. It's a whole complicated process and it's filled with catch-22s. You need a work permit to get a place to hire you but you need a place to hire you so you can get a work permit. Right. So, here I am, stressed out, missing assignments, tanking my beautiful GPA I worked so hard on. I'm slipping and I don't know how to stop.