I've realized that when I am not being my 100% self, its makes me quite depressed. Why should I have to filter my thoughts because someone doesn't care to hear what I've read about and grew fascinated with. Why shut myself off when I'm trying to teach? I have done harm to my mind. I dumbed myself down to someone that didn't care for the intellectual in me. The part of me I have always been and got shut down by someone not having the capacity to understand me. Screw your intellectual ignorance. Read a book, watch a documentary, write a novel, but stop fucking caring more about your image than your capacity as a human being.