I don't know how long I've been using Ello now. Probably not too long.
Today Ello, my best friend said she no longer cared.
I don't know. Maybe I have been very repetitive. Maybe I'm annoying to deal with. Maybe I don't listen and I'm frustrating to talk to. I get all of that.
That's why people don't stay friends with me for long anyway. Probably.
I don't remember if I've ever said I don't care to her. If I have, i must be an absolutely terrible friend. I care alot for her. I was really worried when she didn't pick up her phone I thought she might have felt depressed again or something and did something terrible but I'm glad she is safe and stuff. I never gave up on her I hope she one day breaks out of it and feels better and stronger. I just...At this moment feel very vulnerable and unsure of whom I can talk to. If I annoy her that much to the point she wants to just not care then I don't know who I should talk to. I mean I know it's repetitive but I don't feel sorry about myself. I don't feel sorry. I just feel weak and sad and it's not that emotion where I am sorry for my own situation. I just don't know anymore. I'm lost. And I can't rely on my friends.