All of my music gear decided to fall apart all at once. Maybe it's a sign, I don't know how I feel about music anymore, but I'm afraid to say that in case I change my mind, which I probably will. I feel weird things going on in my brain like my focus on certain things HAS to change, it feels like a matter of survival. I can't tell if this is something related to age, or disappointment, or both. I feel very naked these days, so many things are wrong and I have to just walk a thin path and watch my feet. When I really need someone, no one is there. How can anyone go on giving a shit about ever-changing ephemeral aesthetics, or being cool, now? I want to work hard on something important. Until i know what that is, I'm extremely out of focus. It's hard to value myself right now and that makes me psychically sensitive which is like the last thing I want to be currently. I've only ever had shitty jobs and that is really taking its toll on my psyche. Everything is taking its toll.
Who told you ello has to follow facebook suit in terms of the 'haiku'-style succinct essential post? Funny how you want something new but you do the same thing when you get it. Maybe you can fully open your heart on here and have an actual sea change in terms of social networking. I doubt you'll do it, and you won't do it because you're afraid. I don't think it's facebook or any other site that is the problem. They won't let you have a fake name and they advertise at you.. for free. It wont be good enough until you can download happiness and clear your cache of regret instantly and for free. What does that say about our whole generation? I don't really care. I need to get a grip on something valuable soon.