By some weird coincidence, the first time I had my artwork critiqued by a professional I was in high school. He was working at an animation studio and was super nice when he didn't have to be and gave me some great constructive criticism mixed with some praise that made me fidget and blush like crazy. The one thing he pointed out that I couldn't see was how overly cautious and tentative I was with my drawings. He basically told me to loosen up. With an open mouth I looked at the drawings and then I noticed.. everything was pencil (so I could control any "mistakes"), and the figures and faces, while pretty good, looked as tightly wound up as my hands as I drew it. Also the strokes. Each stroke was tiny and light almost like I was apologizing each time I made a mark... I saw my shyness and insecurities on paper. I'm glad and grateful he pointed this out. It took a lot of time and silly baby steps but some of the most fun I have drawing now is not with pencil but ink and as little pre planning as possible. Just letting my hand talk to my brain and relying on memory and instinct.
I still get way too tightly wound up and over think things and that's when I'm grateful and can tell myself, "chill the fuck out, dinky-donk."
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