Today was a cold and rainy day.
Today, rain didn't scare me.
Clouds and thunder didn't keep me inside. Instead, they inspired me.
Today I took a risk.
I risked wetting my precious clothes and ruining my well crafted persona for a run in the cold rain. It was amazing.
The reflection on the sidewalks, the rain steaming off the lights, the friends who shared it with me. Everything about tonight was breathtaking.
I realized then, that I never wanted to stop feeling this way - Invincible. I've felt a lot of things these past couple weeks, but the one thing I lacked was the emotion to risk it all. I played safe. No bets, no risks, just comfort. Not that there's anything wrong with safe, but there's definitely something wrong with settling. A part of me wanted more. The epicness I longed for wasn't found in big shiny lights or any particular moment. It was found in being alive. The simplicity of taking steps and breathing was enough to make right now epic. It wasn't planned or scheduled, it was raw bottled up emotion finally let free. I shared a sidewalk with my friends. I ran down a bridge barefoot. I spun around in the rain. I danced on top of a parking garage to Aerosmith spilling out the car. I did cartwheels on hard cement. I lit paper airplanes on fire and launched them into the night. I sang love songs to no one and was okay. Right there I felt everything. Real, not real. It was all there. With them. Standing still on a cold rainy day.
So here's to the hopeless. The romantics with whom life is so much more interesting with. The dreamers, the actors, the ones who aren't afraid to dance when everyone's watching. The ones who dare to write when no ones reading. It's to you I dedicate this night too. As I walk down this, now, soaked bridge, I hope to remember the times when life was worth living. The moments that took my breath away. The moments that left me with nothing but wet clothes and dumb dance moves. Tonight . . . tonight's for you.
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