Trauma: A Climb or Dive
Torturous thoughts haunt me
Running wildly through my mind
Until my eyes well up in tears
Am I losing my grip on reality?
Muffled with hurt I sink even deeper in
Anger for reasons I can’t explain.
Affections like pity are just a placebo
Fostering helplessness like a raging fire.
Tempered with motive and lies.
Erroneous interpretations lead to
Rumors spreading wildly
Morphing a cry for help a disgrace.
Antidepressants dull minds not hurts
Talking openly is a matter of trust
Hidden under a cloak of hate
Sheltering wounds that never heal.
Reality is a cruel cold stage
Enthralled by theories about
Daily hurt defined as normal.
Ending one’s suffering is a
Mast climbed only by a victim
Persevering towards recovery
Taught in cause and effect
Iterated with a sense of safety
Ordained by unconditional love
Never by the sense of right and wrong.
Trauma is when hurt is the daily normal and victims don't know they are hurt or afflicted with it because that's the only thing they've experienced. This is why they go into anger spells they can't explain and they just block out reason and can't believe what they did or why they did it. To you they may seem deranged or have anger management issues but the truth is they are children who are lost and need to feel safe to come home. Trauma survival and recovery is like a diet for one's way of living and maintaining a healthy mental state.