You in My Eyes
I lit my cigarette to light up the dark
but all I saw was you so dark.
I looked at old pictures of you
but I realized I can’t tell if that was even you.
I tried to understand you but I failed to see
beyond your motives that don’t fit me.
You keep telling me I am free to be
yet you fight me over my personal glee.
Your heart not eyes has gone blind
Your words not actions stabbed me from behind.
Your actions not words showed me you’re blind.
Your truth not lies broke our relationship
All I see now is the stranger in you
now that lies speak for you.
I can’t seem to find the words to tell you
how disappointing it is to know you.
Everything happens for a reason you told me
but why? How did things happen so abruptly?
I have tried to find purpose using one key
reason to help me figure you out carefully.
I told myself I could do without you
but you kept reminding me of you.
I guess I never knew you at least the real you.
Until I saw you mix good with lies just for you.
Lies to others are a one time business.
Yet lies to loved ones as a lifetime business
is deception’s full time business.
Deception a destructive business
prolongs lies’ lives for personal business.
I won’t be playing your game for you.
No matter how long you plan, or how much you
lie, reality remains with truth to show you
that only your deception will harm you.
And though trials often make me want to flee
from life to hide from its ugly reality.
I lean on hope’s bailey
to face you, loss and death’s misery.
I can manage now but lets see you manage you.
As I put out this cigarette, I will put you
out of my mind like every memory of you
for this will be the last time I speak of you.