Behind a Smile is a Silent Cry (Acrostic)
Between alone and lonely are friends and family
Everything one should need to depend on completely.
Happy and home sometimes mean broken or a stone
In my life I’ve found refuge in being alone
Nestled in loneliness behind a smile of sadness from
Daily revelations of loved one’s expectations.
Affection is based on conformation even in emotion.
Sadly, behind every smile is a pile of
Mixed emotions contemplating one
Idea; do I run or stay, why does
Love have to hurt this way?
Everyday is a struggle of loyalty vs Identity.
Indifference is my best defense
Silence my best friend.
Apathy my point of reference.
Some days are harder than others knowing
I have to mingle again and be normal.
Like a seedling looking for it’s sun
Everyday I try and try to be heard without getting hurt
Not to be compared or compelled
To do or feel something to prove my loyalty and love.
Composure, tact, patience and sacrifice are things I
Run out of many times while waiting to be seen today not as per
Yesterday’s glory or things I can’t undo or say I am sorry for.